so we’re going to florida memorial day weekend. yeah baby! but florida equals beach. and beach equals bathing suit. and bathing suit equals tina looking like a beached albino whale. okay, perhaps that’s a slight exaggeration but that’s how i feel right now. pale and chunky. i’m not going to fake bake, so i will look like casper no matter what. what i can control is my weight. although i say control loosely, since i’ve been wanting to lose weight for, like, ever, and haven’t lost a pound. but supposedly it can happen. and ryan would like to lose weight too, so we’re starting a biggest loser camp in casa stuckenschneider.
i think our plan is a non-diet diet. we’re not counting calories but we’re eating better (and hopefully less). adding lots more veggies and cutting down on the amount of meat and carbs (maybe after my bagel this morning…). adding in fish (yuck, completely new to my diet, though i have made progress) and whole grains and healthy stuff like quinoa and couscous. i will also be trying the recipes i’ve saved from my cooking light issues more than usual. our goal is for our plates to more closely resemble the following illustration from real simple:
and as always when trying to lose weight, there will be working out. which will be especially hard for me since my gym membership ended (and i didn’t renew because we’re trying to move, and apparently you can’t cancel a contract unless you move more than 30 miles away. really, gym? i could barely be motivated to go when i was a 1/2 mile away, let alone four or 10 or 30 miles) i pray i can find motivation to exercise at home, especially since 1. i’m pretty lazy (not gonna lie) and 2. i find it embarrassing to work out in front of ryan (why can i pee in front of my husband but am embarrassed working out in front of him? what is up with that?) hopefully i can find routines that work, whether it’s p90x (kinda scares me), other exercise videos (purchased through amazon after reading reviews or found on netflix) or my usual squats/crunches/lunges etc, along with long walks with beck.
to track our progress, a scale has been purchased and it should arrive next week. yay (that was sarcasm).
to jumpstart our biggest loser regime, wednesday night ryan and i went to stanley’s, our favorite produce store, to stock up on the
gross stuff good stuff, veggies. in our bags:
(all that for about 20 bones, niiiiiice)
(that swiss chard? was not supposed to be swiss chard. was going for kale, but things were mislabeled and not noticed)
not sure what the plan is for some of those. and i can’t believe i bought green beans, gross. that’s a first. but so far we have made two healthified dinners:
wednesday: bell peppers stuffed with mexican rice (i know, not the healthiest. brown rice or couscous would have been better) and queso fresco (the “not bad for you” cheese according to ryan) with a side of chard sauteed with olive oil, a little pat of butter, garlic, s&p and lemon juice. verdict: the stuffed bell peppers were good. and great for lunch the next day. the chard, well, we won’t be buying that again. and not because i put way too much lemon juice in there.
thursday: grilled tilapia with grilled eggplant. verdict: not too shabby. i think i am getting used to tilapia, shocking. but in no way am i ready to move onto fishier fish, like salmon. baby steps.
(so far ryan has been cooking — thanks babe — so i don’t have recipes to share, but of course i will when i have worthy recipes.)
however, i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again, i am not giving up dessert. i just can’t. it’s not going to happen. no siree bob. but i do eat it in moderation. and i can try to make healthier desserts. sometimes.
sooo yeah. i’m a bit nervous about sharing because i should then report progress, but i don’t think i’ll be able to lose much, if anything, and don’t want to admit to the failure at the end. but i’m also hoping by sharing that i’ll feel more accountable and be more motivated so i can report progress. so if you have any diet tips or exercises or recipes you recommend (thank you, amy, for a tilapia recipe that looks delish), please pass them along! i need all the help i can get.
p.s. please don’t tell me i don’t need to lose weight. it’s nice to hear that others don’t think i’m fat and it’s very kind of you, but you haven’t seen me in a bathing suit. i know i’m not fat fat, but i feel fat for myself. i’m not sure if i even weighed what i do now in college when i was eating crappy food for lunch and dinner, chugging beer and eating pizza, gyros, pokey sticks and burritos at two in the morning every weekend. where did you go, metabolism?